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Divine Obedience: When God Wakes You at 3 AM It’s happening again. My mind is starting to hear Him in many different ways. What woke me out of my sleep at 3 AM this morning wasn’t restlessness or anxiety—it was God revealing to me things I never comprehended before. Something so simple, yet so profound: Stop getting angry over the phone. I’ll eventually place it in your hands. The comfort and confidence I feel knowing that Goddie has truly accepted me back into His kingdom surpasses every other emotion I’ve ever experienced. Behind these walls, separated from my two children, I…
Discipline Behind Bars – Pheonix Rising Hello, my beautiful emphasis family. It’s Phoenix Rising here, coming to you from behind these walls where I’ve been learning some of life’s hardest lessons. Today I want to share something with you that has genuinely transformed my journey—a lesson that seemed so simple at first but has become one of the most powerful tools in my healing process. I’m calling this one “My Routine is My New Revenge.” From Freedom to Kindergarten: The Shock of Incarceration You know, when I first got here, I felt like I had been transported back to kindergarten.…
Dying to My Flesh – Pheonix Rising A Birthday Behind Walls — Yet a Peace Beyond Understanding Hello, my beautiful Empresses of the world. Today is November 15, and I turned 27. Now, I’m going to start this off honestly, because that’s the only way I know how to talk to you.This is the third birthday I’ve spent incarcerated.Three birthdays away from my babies.Three birthdays without being wrapped in the arms of my loved ones.Three birthdays without cake, candles, or the chaos of family singing off-key. And believe it or not… I am at peace.A deep peace.A peace that doesn’t make sense…
Product of Environment – By Phoenix Rising Hello, my melanin queens and beautiful souls. Today’s blog is about being a product of your environment and how your children mirror your behavior. I’m writing this from a place of reflection and hard-earned wisdom—as a 26-year-old mother of two who is currently incarcerated. This isn’t easy to share, but if my story can help even one parent see things differently, then every word is worth it. The Moment That Changed Everything Today’s inspiration came from a conversation about my four-year-old son, who will be turning five in just one month. Right now,…
Goddie Refill Faith Story – By Phoenix Rising Hey there, beautiful souls. Phoenix Rising is back with another gym session for your spirit, and today we’re diving deep into something heavy on my heart. This one’s called “Goddie, Can I please have a Refill?” and let me tell you, it was inspired by a young sister I’ve been blessed to know in here who’s going through some serious emotional turmoil right now. Looking in All the Wrong Places You know what I’ve noticed? When we’re hurting, when we’re empty, when we’re desperate for answers, we look everywhere except the one…
Life Audience – by Pheonix Rising Hey there, beautiful souls. It’s Phoenix Rising here, a mother of two, writing from a place many don’t get to see—the walls that hold us, the quiet moments in between the shouts, and the truth that sometimes hurts to admit but heals when spoken out loud. Today’s post is a raw, unfiltered jam I’m calling Life, Camera, Action — Who Is Your Life Audience? If your life were a silent movie, what side would people think you’re on? Would you be proud of the film you’ve lived, if you could defend yourself only with…
A Letter in a Bottle – Pheonix Rising Dear Phoenix, Guess what I found out a couple of days ago? I’m having a girl—just as you predicted! Remember how I kept saying I was going to sleep until the day of the appointment because I was so anxious? Well, the day finally came. I asked the nurse during med pass, “What time is my appointment?” with a smile. She gave me an awkward look and said, “It’s scheduled for today, but it doesn’t say a time,” handed me my meds, and looked away. The nurse was probably thinking, “I see…
Creative Art Therapy – by Pheonix Rising When Therapy Isn’t Enough: The 2 AM Breakdown Hey Empresses, Let’s be real for a second. Counseling and physical therapy are excellent—they’re at the top of everyone’s list for emotional healing, and for good reason. They help you understand and dissect your root problems. But then what? What happens when you have an emotional breakdown at 2 AM and your therapist is unavailable until your next appointment? Some therapists don’t want to be woken up at 7 AM to clock in and hear about people’s dilemmas all day, let alone at 3 AM.…
Sacrifice in Marriage – by Bajan Owl The Unspoken Truth About Male Sacrifice in Relationships Marriage is often painted as a partnership of equals, but what happens when the scales tip so far that one person carries the entire weight of the relationship? This is the story that many men live but rarely tell – the story of endless sacrifice, unreciprocated effort, and the crushing question: when is enough, enough? The traditional narrative suggests that men are the ones who abandon their families, who walk away when things get tough. But what about the men who stay too long, who…
Metamorphosis in God – Pheonix Rising Growth Is a Journey, Not a Destination Many people proudly announce, “I’ve evolved,” “I grew,” or “I changed.” These statements imply that the process is done. Yet with God, transformation never stops. Every day we are spiritually molting, reshaping, and becoming. Evolution in God has no finish line. There is always another level of purpose waiting. Inside the Cocoon: When God Hides You to Transform You The caterpillar’s transition begins in a dark, silent cocoon. In that space: • It cannot see progress• It cannot control timing• It cannot rush its wings into existence…